2005 - October

[El Gordo]

Thanks Sweder, but the entry was supposed to dispel my admitted recent self-doubt rather than express it ... It's not been real self-doubt. It's partly a hangover from a lazy summer, but the recent dip has more to do with the nagging worry about my heel than anything. That said, JP's recent post about how good running is in times of crisis (http://www.runningcommentary.co.uk/forum....php?t=779) reminded me of a few things. Sometimes you just forget how much better running makes you feel, even if does so in a very clever way -- by hiding it behind all that ugly stuff: the effort, the time, the feared derision, the pain of it all. It's always worth it. I'm rambling. It's 6:30 a.m., it's cold and black out there (i know this as I just dropped M off at the station) and I'm just off out for my 3rd run in 3 days, so I hope it won't be long now till I break through that wall you refer to.